Friday, 8 March 2013

A really really late apology

How late is too late? By some strange twist of fate I got in touch with a friend from my teenage years, to whom I had been a jerk, towards the end of our time together. She was always on the social media site where I found her and I would have found her if I had looked earlier. But I never did until a mutual acquaintance of ours mentioned that he had met her. It brought back memories of our friendship and all the fun we had together. We pushed boundaries in a severely restricted society and got into trouble a lot. But we had a lot of fun being constant headaches to the stuck nuns in the school where we studied together. I don't remember the exact details but I ditched her when she was in a spot. I unilaterally decided that I did not want to get into so much trouble.

Ever since my acquaintance mentioned that he had met her, I had this intense desire to contact her and apologize to her. So many years have passed and I expected her to find it silly that I would apologize now. But, when we started chatting, we were like 16 year old girls again. It was as if so many years had not passed in between. She was as warm and humorous as ever despite the fact that life had not been kind to her, atleast in her teenage. Her family situation was never stable and she was in love with a guy whom her parents did not approve. They got married when she was still a teenager and had a kid soon after. Turns out I was not the only jerk in her life. She was left to build her life on her own with a child when she was almost a child herself. But she was no weakling, she did it and today she is climbing the corporate ladder in a very sunny place. Her son is a teenager now and a blessing, according to her. Apart from having a successful career, being a single mom, she has found time to explore her inner artist and has set up a charity organization. Yes, she has been her own knight in shining armour.

When I apologized to her halway through our conversation, I expected her to laugh it off. Instead she told me that my actions hurt her a lot and that she is glad that I apologized. She forgave me quickly and we were back to our girly talks. After our conversation ended, I felt so happy that I found my friend again and I apologized although it was so many years too late. I am glad my friend is so generous that she forgave me. I had a feeling in my heart that I had been blessed with so many wonderful people in my life and I have not been good to all of them. For a change, I should be the wonderful person in somebody's life giving more than I get.

When I was in this exuberent mood which was tinged with a feeling that I should be a better person, my doorbell rang. It was my "warmest German ever" friend P. She is the kind of person who can lift your spirits when you are down in dumps. Imagine what it would be if you are feeling good already. I greeted her with a smile and tight hug which almost matched hers. P and her son could not stay long and they left a very unhappy and whining Sunshine behind. He wanted to play with them, but unfortunately, they already had other plans. But nothing could spoil my mood. Because I was feeling blessed.

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